Mark 16:15-20 And he said to them, "Go into all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation. Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved.....And these signs will accompany those who believe in my name they will cast out demons, they will speak in new tongues, and if they drink any deadly poison, it will not hurt them, they will lay hands on the sick, and they will recover. So then the LJC after he had spoken to them was taken up to heaven and sat down at the right hand of GOD...And they went out and preached everywhere while the LORD worked with them and confirmed the message by the accompanying signs.

Colassians 3:17

And whatever you do, in word or deed, so everything in the name of the LORD JESUS, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

August 17,2009

My friend/ fellow midwife Paula and I planned to go to DMC, Davao Medical Center, since it was my last day....neither of us had ever toured the facility but had the unfortunate experience of transporting several time to this place. And we both had this raw sensation left in our hearts after seeing a third world community hospital. When you enter the hospital, it is a swarm of people lined up along the halls in stretchers...it is pretty overwhelming to take in all at once....you feel like you are in a daze because all you see is faces and injuries.

I came into this place as more of a spectator....I wanted to captured on camera just a bit of what this hospital was like....but I really did not know how powerfully God was about to move. A very wonderful married couple, Len and Delmar Diercks, prayed over me the day before I left for the Philippines and told me that God had
God was going to do more than I could ever ask or imagine. At first when we walked into the ER we were semi-detached from everything...mostly because it was so overwhelming the sights and sounds...things we have never seen in the open before...

But without us even knowing better, Christ was guiding out every step...literally...we ended up in the pediatric ward first and somehow miraculously we ended up in the neonate area...

Let me just testify right now..that God is an awesome God....he guides those who are willing to just go.....in a short moment....he laid his hands on us and made our hands, our hearts one with His and He gave us spiritual eyes. Every turn we made or step we took there was another opportunity to minister and pray over the people there. ( I will go into specific details in the next blog)
It was so humbling to be used by HIM....With our physical eyes we were passing by and seeing so much suffering and sadness around us....but when we looked with the spiritual eyes..Oh How God just kept walking us through each moment and showing us the next person to lay hands on....the next baby to touch...the next mother to lift up in prayer. It was completely utterly amazing and spiritual. Isnt Jesus so wonderful...how he can take the sufferings of the world and turn them into opportunities to pour out mercy and peace and comfort.
I am reminded of the verse Is 61:3......God takes us and makes beauty from ashes! As a child of God we are so privelege to be able to walk in Christ.....and be called to carry passion and concern in our hearts for our fellow brother or sister...to be a powerful witness and demonstrator of HIS great love! The Holy Spirit guides us and leads us so that we are able to minister and be tangible vessels of love and healing. I walked away from this experience in complete awe...humble to the point of tears and awe.....Thank you Jesus...thank you for filling me with your SPIRIT so at the perfect time I am able to have an eternal connection with your child. I love you LORD. (Next blog I will get into the specifics of the people I encounter....but first I wanted to give GLORY TO GOD! WOW ! I am amazed DADDY! )
Lord continue this work in me.....help me to stay aware of you...and be aware of the deep spiritual needs of those around me. May I touch them with your hand....may they be healed in their hearts and in their bodies. Jesus....today I experienced some serious ACTS action! I saw people being healed and restored....I was able to understand a language I never heard before...WOW! Thank you JESUS!

Leaving this place!!

So I am sitting here at my computer in a birth room, just after transporting a woman fully dilated with breech presentation, and I think I am in AWE. I am so thankful to God for letting me have this experience...being apart of so many births and labors. It has been amazing. I am also spiritually energized....I have had the unique privelege of walking and being held by Jesus this past 6 weeks. I really couldnt have done this without Him...especially leaving my family. That was so difficult. Also when I was in intense births especially this last week with all my continuities...I so strongly felt Christ in me. I didnt sleep for over 60 hours from Sunday to Wednesday this week and everytime my friend Paula saw me she was just amazed and said how come you look for joyful Krissy...not just happy but you are radiating and joy is on your face. It really was not me she was seeing it was Jesus!

I felt so very supernatual help at some births that just amazed me and made me want to fall on my knees and thank the LORD. He really was present with me...and was helping me because he wanted to touch the life of these women and babies. Oh Lord THANK YOU SO MUCH.

A friend gave me a passage from Ephesians and I believe that this prayer was answered..."I keep asking that the God of our LORD JESUS CHRIST, the glorious father may give you the SPIRIT OF WISDOM AND REVELATION......

I felt that a lot during my times in the birth room...God speaking audibly to my heart and making his presence known to me so that I would be most useful in helping his precous daughters in labor.

IN HIM WE LIVE AND MOVE AND HAVE OUR BEING. acts 17:28 KJV

Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

Lord God thank you for walking with me on this journey. It was such a blessing to be found in you and to be wholly present with you and be intentional about serving those around me..help me to maintain this heart as I return home and help me to continue to grow in you as you edge off and smoothen all my rough areas.

TO God be the GLORY amen.Please portect me on my flight home and bless my family as I rejoin them.

An excerpt from Max Lucado, my favorite author and preacher, and his book It's Not About Me:

Moses asked to see it on Sinai....When Ezekiel saw it, he had to bow. It encircled the angels and starstruck the shepherds in the Bethlehem pasture. Jesus radiates it. John beheld it. Peter witnessed it on Transfiguration Hill. Christ will return enthroned in it. Heaven will be illuminated by it. ................GLORY....GOD's GLORY!

I really love this! You know the whole earth displays God's beautiful nature....His glory....rivers flow with water and give new life to plants and vitality to animals. Majestic mountians remind us of the grandiose and awesome hand and workmanship of God. (psalm 140)

How much more should His precious creation.....whom he made in His likeness.....YOU AND ME...display HIS GLORY....
Wow! He has called us forth above all the rest of his GLORIOUS creation to be HIS HANDS and FEET....to walk on this earth in the knowledge and love of JESUS....
How awesome this privelege to be apart of HIS PLAN.....to be able to pray to our CREATOR and for HIM to answer our weak voices...because of his great love for us and desire to be near to us....
Thank you Jesus.

Lord I love living with the knowledge of your greatness. I am humbled to be apart of your PLAN...I desire to be more like you and to be found in your presence..help me LORD everyday to find myself at your feet drinking from the river of life....taking in all that is possible...I love you LORD...help me to love you more and serve your people with un-faltering love and kindness.

I am beginning to grasp more and more the Lord's prayer....Lord give us this day our daily bread.

I think that we all currently live in an environment that if we need something we go out to the store and just buy it......we dont have needs..material needs. Just go to Walmart if you need something...you can find everything there, right? But with faith...we cannot just see our needs and quickly supply to our hearts and life all that it needs...We have to come daily to the table or Christ and be fed......
In our spiritual and personal relationship with God we have to learn to depend on Christ....to give us each day the provisions that we need. We have to go to God daily for he said he is the bread of life (John 6:35)

I have been thinking all day about one topic: Does everyone have that moment in life....where they unmistakably come face to face with God? I have seen so many broken and hurt people and I wondered....did they open their heart to receive the love of GOD....God is all around. I feel Him all the time....even in the craziest storm, the hardest of life's moments...HE is standing right there beside us all.....are you letting Him scoop you up and take care of you right now. Whateever great wall is between you and God I pray that it my crumble and you may be able to embrace HIS love...truly know that it is not like human love...it is so much more..and He will never hurt you with that love....only hold you beautifully in HIS arms...

I have a few people currently in my lfe that I am desperately praying for.....I want them to experience Christ....his enduring and wonderful love....How did they somehow see God as anything different than a loving father....a bright amazing illuminating presence of LOVE.....

Was it me? Was it one of my brothers or sisters in the LORD? Was it satan attacking them? How come you missed the loving touch of God? I feel that it is unmistakable and life changing...the instant He touches us we are no longer the same anymore.

Lord God, do those who struggle with faith think that Christians do not struggle and they do not sin and they do not have problems? I feel that distance between us sometimes.....Lord how can I be more of a reflection of your love......Lord i think my heart is breaking right now because I feel a great amount of urgency.....people do not have lots of time.....life can be cut short so quickly. Lord God I am so burdened and sad right now....could I please demonstrate my love to your children....could I please show them how much you desperately love them...but you have already....on the cross....right?

Lord I had a classmate die recently....and I do believe she was saved...she had such a pure heart..but her death makes me think of the reality of our situation here on earth.

I am often very busy with my goals and desires and I miss out on you...and just being with you... I want to have your eyes to see into the spirits and lives of those around me...that I may help them in any way in their faith journeys...especially those that have a really hard path in front of them.....I know life can be so devastating...and there is so much out there..other beliefs...indulgances...ect....but I know I know without a doubt...CHRIST is the ONLY ANSWER.

Lord I want to just be a part of KINGDOM work...and have eternity in my heart....have concern..deep concern and love for your children....for my family..for my friends...for my neighbors. Help me LORD...I lay down my life for them...really....Lord I dont want to be a martyr per-say...but I do not want to be afraid to be used of you...and sacrifice some small comforts in my life...for a greater good
SERIOUSLY is there any greater experience than to be able to have someone come to the FATHER....no..absolutely not!!!

Deep Understanding...hard lesson learned

Dearest Jesus,

In the past few days I was a bit curious where you were.....I was calling out your name....my heart was searching for your heart....and then I realized...you were calling me...but I was just not in the right room...barely even in the right house!

Oh Lord I have learned something so valuable from my time here in the Philippines. I have learned what it means to put 100 percent dependence on you.
When all is stripped away and I simply come...as the song goes.....when I am face to face with my Savior....it is so powerful! It is so awesome!
Lord you have given me the ability to experience human love......and have intense wonderful beautiful relationships......but in this place....the Philippines....you are showing me YOU.....and requiring of me to really look at you...really depend on you...and no one else.

We all have such an intense need to be loved. Proverb 19:22 states "What a man desires is unfailing love...better a poor man than a liar." We are created with a God shaped hole in our existence...that only he can fill....
WE all want to be loved....we all desire unconditional unwavering radical demonstrative love.....love that is deeper than any sea....love that is wider than any horizon....we yearn for it...we spend our entire life in search of it.
WE all want to be held and comforted and treasured.
We are created with this deep need...because God is the only one who can fill it.
Some of us, myself included though, are trying to fill that need with other things than GOD. Even our spouses, friends, kids cannot fill this void.....only GOD.
It seems that many of us are walking around this world...with this cup....all day long we walk around with this cup...this empty cup...begging and holding out this cup....please fill me...even a tablespoon will help?
What do you fill your cup up with on a daily basis....
But NO ONE PERSON will ever be able to fill up that cup.....ONLY GOD.
I have been learning this being stipped of my family ....my dear husband and precious baby boy....that I have to rely mor on GOD to fill me up more and more each day....
Psalm 143:8 Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing lovefor i have put my trust in you shoe me the way i should go for to you i lift up my soul....
Wouldnt it be great if every morning you allowed God to fill your cup up to the brim....and anything or anyone else adding to your cup would then just be overflow of an already full cup....believe me...there really is nothing more wonderful than being in the presence of someone who has had their cup filled up by Jesus Christ alone....they are radiant....
Lord I know that is the lesson you are teaching me while I am here in the Philippines...
I am so blessed back home to surrounded with such wonderful family and friends...and I just hear you asking me....but are you still relying on me?
I have blessed you with a wonderful life and family and friends....but do you really trust me....
do you let me be the whole to fill you ....so you are not walking around with gapping holes.....
I see so many people walking around...trying to fill themselves with things that will not complete them....
In marriages I see wholly people trying to get by.....frustrated that their spouse does not fill them up...when they are incomplete because they have not fully trusted God and put their hope in His love....
I see people in addictions...trying to cram their holes full of momentary fillers....and really it is like poison because it only makes their holes bigger and wider...
I see people trying to fill their holes with money and work and personal successess.....and still running completely empty.

So I am thankful for this time in the Philippines Lord...for the lesson you are teaching me.....to fill up on you first everyday.....and everything else can just be overflow...
I depend on you to get me through...I am no promised tomorrow...oh how I am blessed with great family and friends but daily Lord I have to come to you and let you fill me and lead me and change me and mold me....
Continue Lord to break me and challenge me...I need to be only yours...
I have learned to depend on you more.....
When there is no usual comforts or "fixes" will you learn to turn to HIM....
Will you let Him fill you up...so that you are not lacking anything....and that you are not a frustrated individual walking on this earth angry for not having your needs met?
Lord I am a work in progress, but I think that I am learning this more and more everyday...to have all my trust and hope in you! Amen
Thank you Lord for the lessons...but Lord also really I do thank you and fall at my knees before you in gratitude for giving me such a beautiful life....a beautiful family...a wonderful future.....great friends.....thank you Father God for supplying all my needs.

Your daughter, Krissy