Some would say...if God called me to Africa it would be SCARY HARD IMPOSSIBLE....this has always been my dream.....
But right now God has called me to GAP MINISTRIES. HE somehow believes that I have something to offer these children and has placed 7 (9 with my own) children in my home to love!!!!!
WOW!
It is difficult, consuming, exhausting, and stretching me beyond anything I have ever done before!!!
I have to keep press in.....I have to focus my heart and attitude of Jesus......I have to give up my own desires...I have to trust...I have to have patience....I have to ask the SPIRIT for guidance.....
It is making me a better Christian......making me walk with GOD more!!!!
I can say that I have mixed feelings. Because as I give of myself and my time (my family's time) I am worried about my children and my marriage. I want to protect them. God how far do I go....being a missionary to foster children.....protect my kids. I hate them to hear and see the abuse and violence.....I hate for my little baby to get hurt physically and emotionally.
Protect them. They are yours. So I guess I need to learn to trust more! But also I dont want to be irresponsible!!!!!!!
Walking next to you....
Im going to let you carry me a while......
Until I find my own strength and no more what the right answers are......
your daughter
Krissy
