Today I went up to the cities for a day of fun with my son...in prepartion mentally for my departure in less than 2 weeks to the philippines....i just wanted to create a great memory for the both of us!!!It was very successful...he is so wonderful!
I had a God moment on the way back....
As we drove home after a long day together, I noticed the traffic starting to back up....until no further than ten minutes from the cities we were at a dead stop. My husband had called us already numerous times asking about our estimated time of arrival home...I was anxious to see him!
I was getting increasingly impatient, frustrated.....at this inconvenience! I was ready to go home and this traffic was preventing that! Add another 1 onto the trip I said to myself! Someone was trying to get into my lane....ugh....more frustrated! I just want to get home...I have things to do!!! Important things! Cant these people just move faster....why are there so many people on the road!!!!!I just wanna get where I am going and be done....go to bed...relax on the couch...study for a test...sit with my husband....anything but this!!!!!!!!!!!!
But then it hit me.....wow!!!!People are not inconveniences......life is not an inconvenience...traffic could be slowed up because there was an accident.....or maybe a funeral...or something...that deserves more attention than I do and my stupid list of things I would like to be doing other than sitting in traffic!!!!!!!!!
In my faith Lord am I like this.....................when life stops...I mean, my exact plan or intention for the day......am I quick to get angry or frustrated.....do i take time to consider what the delay might be and that it might be for a better or greater reason than what I was doing or planning on doing.....................
And in regards to people....do I truly have a heart of compassion....to take a minute from my selfishness and say....there are people bumper to bumper with me every second of my life...also going somewhere....am i concerned where they are going and how they are getting there....do i have companions on this journey daily and do i lend a hand, an ear or anything........or am i too consumed with me!!!!!!!!!!!
Lord thank you for traffic......thank you for making me gear down sometimes....put on the breaks a little....get real close with other people.....be aware of the emergencies and accidents that are happening around me.....thanks for just making me HAVE TO STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lord I love you so much....i love your children so much too!
May I go about my day with your eyes....your focus and your love..........
I want to be a person of influence.....not memorable by name...but action and love.....let me help people...really....let me seek you and know you more!
As Solomon asked for wisdom.............Lord I ask for revelation.....to see into people's lives....their eyes and their hearts....let me be an instrument of love.............I want to be a prophet....not one bellowing out judgment....but words of hope and inspiration...........by something I say or write or do...let even one....come to know you more fully! I love you Lord! Amen!
Another amazing revelations I had.................we all go through a lot here on earth.....we experience our share of valleys...but why if now today as a Christian I can live in eternity.....with eternity in mind...with the understanding that I am a daughter of the most high GOD.....why do i have to experience these valleys...............
well...i figured it out!!!!!!Thank you Jesus..............when we are in the valley we can so much better grasp and comprehend the height and depth of our Daddy's love! when we are that low....we can see how far he reaches down to touch us and lift us up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Amen!
