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Sunday, January 30, 2011
new life
I loved welcoming new life as a midwife..being the first hands to touch new life..but how much more of a blessing to watch the spiritual birth of one of these kids we are working with here at Gap...today I witnessed as one of our girls walked up to the altar to give her heart to the Lord. I was in awe...in wonder..thank you Lord for this opportunity to be a witness of these miracles.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
dear me, I can hardly see right now.....was unpacking and found a card from someone very previous to me....why in some form or fashion do I always lose those I love and need the most..I can't bear it..my heart can't take this Lord...I see myself in this moment and I have no idea how I got here...who am I...I am glad I have You Lord such an understatement...I am here to learn Lord...I don't want to be hurting right now..but also I want to feel this all fully so that I can heal completely.....had a good talk with two people and they said in some form the measure of pain is the measure of love we had for them....oh how I loved..I mean love..I am surrendering this to You precious Lord..breath new life in me...and please watch over my friend...my soul was clouded but no one ever or will ever know my heart so well..I know this deep within me to be true. I need miracles...I need a job...I need a heavenly appointed task to distract me from myself..my silly self...thank you for you your patience Lord I know I am ridiculous...less words now..
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Friday, January 14, 2011
friends
Taking application for loyal trustworthy friend..must love life and love God.
Loves adventures.Desperately seeking the heart of God. Understands imperfections but not afraid to exhort and correct me when I'm erred.
Will come visit me in a nursing home.when I get old.just so I don't have to be alone..even if I' m crazy or can't hear or speak..and can actually imagine being my friend this long....
Hehe.. I know this is silly but I am asking God for a friend like this and I do know that I already have some great friends now....
Loves adventures.Desperately seeking the heart of God. Understands imperfections but not afraid to exhort and correct me when I'm erred.
Will come visit me in a nursing home.when I get old.just so I don't have to be alone..even if I' m crazy or can't hear or speak..and can actually imagine being my friend this long....
Hehe.. I know this is silly but I am asking God for a friend like this and I do know that I already have some great friends now....
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excited!
I received an email from an international school that wants us to consider being dorm parents in Malaysia and possibly nurses.
I do not know if this is something we will do in the future but I got suddenly excited. I am not even 30 years old and I have lived a rich life.
I am blessed. I have the perfect husband even today my friend said" have you figure out what egg he came from" hehe! Jason always lifts me up at the perfect moments. My heart is very fragile right now and I am so thankful that he is helping me. Thank you God for the work you have done in his life to make him such a devoted husband and man of God.
I lvoe watching Chrsitopher and I realise he has a very rich little life too. I want to protect him a lot but also I see how God is going to use the work that we are doing to prepare him to do more amazing things than Jason or I could ever do.....he is such a little firecracker!
Here are some things that I want to pursue more, to better my life and the life of those around me.
1. run a marathon
2. volunteer weekly at christophers school
3. save more money
4. go back to school
5. have a baby...hehe! well not sure about this one yet! depends on number 6
6. lose weight and be stronger...15 lbs and gain muscle.
7. Study the Old testament and get a MDiv.
8. Travel internationally with Chris and Jason before the end of the year.
9. grow in my relationship with christ and make him priority!
10 Take my husband on a second honeymoon.
111. Take a family trip with some good friends.
Thank you Lord for this very busy day. I exhausted the hours quite well. Bless this home. Bless these kids.
Note: One of my kids today said, in regards to some of her decisions she recently made, only being 13, she said I have reached that time in my life where I really dont care anymore.
Oh God I felt your heart break when you heard this. I feel like I am called to be a houseparent to bring good news into their lives and to help them see they have such potential..light a little fire inside them..and that light has to be JESUS..I BEG YOU TO TEACH ME HOW TO DO THIS>>SEE PAST THEIR HURT AND BEHAVIORS AND let me see their heart. I thank you that you did and do that for me.
Lord give me a blessed week with my family.
I love you LORD. Krissy
I do not know if this is something we will do in the future but I got suddenly excited. I am not even 30 years old and I have lived a rich life.
I am blessed. I have the perfect husband even today my friend said" have you figure out what egg he came from" hehe! Jason always lifts me up at the perfect moments. My heart is very fragile right now and I am so thankful that he is helping me. Thank you God for the work you have done in his life to make him such a devoted husband and man of God.
I lvoe watching Chrsitopher and I realise he has a very rich little life too. I want to protect him a lot but also I see how God is going to use the work that we are doing to prepare him to do more amazing things than Jason or I could ever do.....he is such a little firecracker!
Here are some things that I want to pursue more, to better my life and the life of those around me.
1. run a marathon
2. volunteer weekly at christophers school
3. save more money
4. go back to school
5. have a baby...hehe! well not sure about this one yet! depends on number 6
6. lose weight and be stronger...15 lbs and gain muscle.
7. Study the Old testament and get a MDiv.
8. Travel internationally with Chris and Jason before the end of the year.
9. grow in my relationship with christ and make him priority!
10 Take my husband on a second honeymoon.
111. Take a family trip with some good friends.
Thank you Lord for this very busy day. I exhausted the hours quite well. Bless this home. Bless these kids.
Note: One of my kids today said, in regards to some of her decisions she recently made, only being 13, she said I have reached that time in my life where I really dont care anymore.
Oh God I felt your heart break when you heard this. I feel like I am called to be a houseparent to bring good news into their lives and to help them see they have such potential..light a little fire inside them..and that light has to be JESUS..I BEG YOU TO TEACH ME HOW TO DO THIS>>SEE PAST THEIR HURT AND BEHAVIORS AND let me see their heart. I thank you that you did and do that for me.
Lord give me a blessed week with my family.
I love you LORD. Krissy
Thursday, January 13, 2011
And end for a new beginning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2010 was a year that I surprised myself.
I realized that I had a great capacity and ability to do some very hard things. We began the journey of being houseparents....and although it was a hard road I learned alot. It bought many blessings, of which I know have many wonderful children in my heart. I was able to be a mother to some great kids. As we journey into 2011, I am excited for the other children that will come into our lives. I know they will bless us, stretched us and God will be with us along the way. I surprised myself by being able to partake in this new mission field and I/Jason are loving it and growing everyday.
On the other hand, I surprised myself negatively as well. I am seeing the painful result of not following completely in His will. But 2011 will be a year of redemption and healing. I will walk into relationships and circumstances with a renewed mind and heart. I am daily seeking to be transformed by Jesus. I have learned in my life that when I go through hard things, it is for HIM to strengthen me and make me more ready, sensitive to His voice.....challenge me to stay under GOD's protective plan/laws. These are painful lessons to learn sometimes but ultimately I am SO very thankful for them. It reaffirms to me that I need to put 100 percent dependence on Him. I will be fasting next week over these items and I already feel better, making a determined effort to follow him and make corrections, according to HIS will for me.
More later..........
I realized that I had a great capacity and ability to do some very hard things. We began the journey of being houseparents....and although it was a hard road I learned alot. It bought many blessings, of which I know have many wonderful children in my heart. I was able to be a mother to some great kids. As we journey into 2011, I am excited for the other children that will come into our lives. I know they will bless us, stretched us and God will be with us along the way. I surprised myself by being able to partake in this new mission field and I/Jason are loving it and growing everyday.
On the other hand, I surprised myself negatively as well. I am seeing the painful result of not following completely in His will. But 2011 will be a year of redemption and healing. I will walk into relationships and circumstances with a renewed mind and heart. I am daily seeking to be transformed by Jesus. I have learned in my life that when I go through hard things, it is for HIM to strengthen me and make me more ready, sensitive to His voice.....challenge me to stay under GOD's protective plan/laws. These are painful lessons to learn sometimes but ultimately I am SO very thankful for them. It reaffirms to me that I need to put 100 percent dependence on Him. I will be fasting next week over these items and I already feel better, making a determined effort to follow him and make corrections, according to HIS will for me.
More later..........
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
healing
How do you heal from pain you caused yourself....how do you heal a wound so deep in your heart that it feels the only way to heal it is to remove it???? That is why I am a Christian...because I cannot do these things..only god can!
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Tuesday, January 4, 2011
a new year to fall more and more in LOVE
As this new year begins, I am trying to think of all the possibilities and dreams that I have. I love to dream and wonder. I am so excited. I am confident in God and his ability...I am shocked that He chooses to use me...but its those days when I have reached my limit that I see GODS PLAN the most because I know it is HIM at work and not little old me.
I was hummimg this song tonight and then I decided to look closely at the lyrics...This song is the prayer of my heart for this next year...and the rest of my life...as i seek to know God more I see the world so much clearer...I am not struggling as much with my own stupid sins and desires...I am more aware of the needs of others....I see HIS plans for the world and even myself....I thank God that he lets me come close to him....I am so glad that I just dont have head knowledge about JESUS but I have heart knowledge. I am so thankful that HE will never leave me...he will never abandon or disappoint me...even though I at times will....I love you JESUS...I thank you for letting me be your daughter. I thank you for my friends and pray for those who do not yet know you or really capture the essence of a life in you...I pray that you will help me live more BOLDLY AND LOUDLY for you..and draw others to your LOVE FORGIVENESS GRACE MERCY....you are so beautiful...I will set my eyes on you from now on .....I will fall more in love with you....and only you....and set my mind and heart toward heaven Thank you for this new year....I love the smell of new things coming.................................................yippee..so excited daddy.
To know you is never worry for my life, and To know you is to never to give in or compromise To know you is to want to tell the world about you Cause I can't live without you To know you is to hear your voice when you are calling To know you is to catch my brother when he is falling To know you is to feel the pain of the broken hearted Cause they can't live with out you. More than my next breath More than life or death All reaching for, I live my life to know you more I leave it all behind, you are all that satisfies To know you is to want to know you more To know you is to want to know you more To know you is to ache for more than ordinary To know you is to look beyond the temporary To know you is believing that you will be enough Cause there is no life without you More than my next breath More than life or death All I'm reaching for, I live my life to know you more I leave it all behind, you are all that satisfies To know you is to want to know you more To know you is to want to know you more All this life could offer me, could not compare to you Compare to you And I count it all as lost, compared to knowing you Knowing you More than my next breath More than life or death All I'm reaching for, I live my life to know you more I leave it all behind, you are all that satisfies To know you is to want to know you more To know you is to want to know you more Compared to you Compared to you And I count it all as lost, compared to knowing you Knowing you And I count it all as lost, compared to knowing you Knowing you
I was hummimg this song tonight and then I decided to look closely at the lyrics...This song is the prayer of my heart for this next year...and the rest of my life...as i seek to know God more I see the world so much clearer...I am not struggling as much with my own stupid sins and desires...I am more aware of the needs of others....I see HIS plans for the world and even myself....I thank God that he lets me come close to him....I am so glad that I just dont have head knowledge about JESUS but I have heart knowledge. I am so thankful that HE will never leave me...he will never abandon or disappoint me...even though I at times will....I love you JESUS...I thank you for letting me be your daughter. I thank you for my friends and pray for those who do not yet know you or really capture the essence of a life in you...I pray that you will help me live more BOLDLY AND LOUDLY for you..and draw others to your LOVE FORGIVENESS GRACE MERCY....you are so beautiful...I will set my eyes on you from now on .....I will fall more in love with you....and only you....and set my mind and heart toward heaven Thank you for this new year....I love the smell of new things coming.................................................yippee..so excited daddy.
To know you is never worry for my life, and To know you is to never to give in or compromise To know you is to want to tell the world about you Cause I can't live without you To know you is to hear your voice when you are calling To know you is to catch my brother when he is falling To know you is to feel the pain of the broken hearted Cause they can't live with out you. More than my next breath More than life or death All reaching for, I live my life to know you more I leave it all behind, you are all that satisfies To know you is to want to know you more To know you is to want to know you more To know you is to ache for more than ordinary To know you is to look beyond the temporary To know you is believing that you will be enough Cause there is no life without you More than my next breath More than life or death All I'm reaching for, I live my life to know you more I leave it all behind, you are all that satisfies To know you is to want to know you more To know you is to want to know you more All this life could offer me, could not compare to you Compare to you And I count it all as lost, compared to knowing you Knowing you More than my next breath More than life or death All I'm reaching for, I live my life to know you more I leave it all behind, you are all that satisfies To know you is to want to know you more To know you is to want to know you more Compared to you Compared to you And I count it all as lost, compared to knowing you Knowing you And I count it all as lost, compared to knowing you Knowing you
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