I feel the deep need to raise praises to the Lord....in this moment...in this time of my life. Lord may you not be forgotten especially when all your blessings surround me and your loving hand envelopes me, comforting and protecting me.

Psalm 149
1 Praise the LORD. [a]

Sing to the LORD a new song,

his praise in the assembly of the saints.
2 Let Israel rejoice in their Maker;

let the people of Zion be glad in their King.
3 Let them praise his name with dancing

and make music to him with tambourine and harp.
4 For the LORD takes delight in his people;

he crowns the humble with salvation.
5 Let the saints rejoice in this honor

and sing for joy on their beds.
6 May the praise of God be in their mouths

and a double-edged sword in their hands,
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Psalm 150
1 Praise the LORD. [b]

Praise God in his sanctuary;

praise him in his mighty heavens.
2 Praise him for his acts of power;

praise him for his surpassing greatness.
3 Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet,

praise him with the harp and lyre,
4 praise him with tambourine and dancing,

praise him with the strings and flute,
5 praise him with the clash of cymbals,

praise him with resounding cymbals.
6 Let everything that has breath praise the LORD.

Praise the LORD.

Dear Father, sometimes I am at a loss for words when I consider all that you have done for me. I am truly amazed at your deliverane and love. I want to do great things for you in your honor and for your glory....and yet sometimes I cannot even move or I do not even know how to give myself to you wholly. But Lord today I consider that I am not able to do anything for you....the only things that you desire is praise and devotion.

So Lord to you I commit myself with all my faults and all my wounds..I humbly come to you for salvation and healing. I love you Lord. I see you more and more....and find you in my heart, growing and transforming me...thank you Lord...creator of the whole world and my dear beloved Daddy....I have nothing to offer you but PRAISE....I love you.

1 Praise the LORD. [a]

Praise the LORD from the heavens,

praise him in the heights above.
2 Praise him, all his angels,

praise him, all his heavenly hosts.
3 Praise him, sun and moon,

praise him, all you shining stars.
4 Praise him, you highest heavens

and you waters above the skies.
5 Let them praise the name of the LORD,

for he commanded and they were created.
6 He set them in place for ever and ever;

he gave a decree that will never pass

away.
7 Praise the LORD from the earth,

you great sea creatures and all ocean depths,
8 lightning and hail, snow and clouds,

stormy winds that do his bidding,
9 you mountains and all hills,

fruit trees and all cedars,
10 wild animals and all cattle,

small creatures and flying birds,
11 kings of the earth and all nations,

you princes and all rulers on earth,
12 young men and maidens,

old men and children.
13 Let them praise the name of the LORD,

for his name alone is exalted;

his splendor is above the earth and the heavens.
14 He has raised up for his people a horn, [b]

the praise of all his saints,

of Israel, the people close to his heart.

Praise the LORD.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VU_rTX23V7Q I love this video, please watch it while contemplating the father heart of God...how much he desires us and love us and adores us....if you have never experienced this type of love...or are seeking it with all your heart...please rest in this...The Creator of the universe passionately pursues you and loves you and desires that you may find comfort in His love...so much so he gave his life so that you may live! Amen.I promise human love can never begin to define this amazing love story....this amazing chase He is on to capture your heart and spend the rest of eternit showing you how much he loves you and wants to bless you! If you have been hurt before with love, please know that he will heal all wounds through His amazing gift of love...Let Him tell you who you are...find your identity in Him, blessed child of the most High God....please begin to grasp the depth and width of His love...and be healed and set free~ You are God's and forever he will sustain you and love you and keep you! See you in heaven blessed and loved one!

Lord God I thank you for this day! I had this moment today....and I realized how faithful you are to me. You set this dream in my heart to go to the Philippines and to become a midwife over 3 years ago. And now I am here! Wow! Lord you are amazing. Lord I thought that I would have so much time with you while I am here, I mean I thought that I would encounter this revelations upon revelation thing so that I may begin writing a book or devotional. I feel that I am not able to do that currently.....but you know I am also sensing you are so near to me. I dont not hear alot of profound things come out when I am seeking you or waiting for you....i guess in the way that I am expecting...but I do sense your presence..all around me enveloping me and protecting me. I just hear you saying softly, I love you Krissy..cant you see that? Do not wait to hear anything else but this right now! Because after I fill you and you experience more of my love, I will then pour out onto you revelations and prophesies and blessings beyond your imagination or dreams. Thank you Lord....I was than reminded of the chapters in first corinthians (one of the students here also talked about this)
Paul is talking to the Corithians about them being given gifts..to teach to prophesy to speak in tongues and to heal....but he continues to go on and say..but if you have no love.....which I think means...if you have not fully grasped the love of God on your own and you do not freely give love to all....then those gifts are nothing. I thank you for the gifts you have given me Lord and I pray to use them for your glory....but more than that I want to know your love more and more and want to learn more and more how to share that love with others.
Today I was walking in Davao with a friend. We saw a small Catholic church and it reminded me of Mexico. Anyways, across the way I saw a old lady sitting in her little store. She was smiling at me. I went over to take to her a little. Kumusta ka?
She asked me where I was from and said her sister lived in the US. She also said that she was all alone there. Just her and her store. My heart instantly broke. I have recently been reading a lot of material about our obligation and call and God's heart for the widow and the fatherless......I took her hand and just held it for a moment...I actually didnt know what to say since my Cebuano is not that good....but I thought Lord in this moment let her feel your love...when I squeezed her hand she smiled so big and I saw a spark in her eye and I saw what seemed to be a tear forming. I think that she had not been touched by another human being in a long time. I was so fortunate to be in that moment with her. I know I did not do much, but in that moment I felt God's heart and God's love in my heart...pouring onto her hands like a sweet fragrant oil that was somehow soothing her lonely soul. I really am sharing this not to esteem myself and I pray that it does not come off that way.....LORD GOD, let me be your hands and feet! Lord let me touch your children and let them in a small way...be touched by their Creator and Savior through me.
I guess more than anything it was a lesson to me. The biggest lesson I am learning here is that we are called as Christians to be the tangible extension of HIS LOVE. WE are to love and love and love some more. We are to allow God to fill us up for that when we go out we will pour out his love onto his hurting children. Lord help me come to you more...to be filled so that I can fill your children up! Lord please come to me and make yourself more and more real to me that I am make you more real by my human touch...i know that I am a broken vessel and I am a sinful person..but thank you for letting me physically touch someone.
Let them experience you through me Lord. Help me to be a more perfected vessle to do so...continue your work on me Lord. You know my heart and you know I want to serve. Let me be a servant for you and help make me more like you and less like my old nature. I love you Jesus!

I only have a quick message or pressing on my spirit right now that I want to share. Fatigue has gotten me today...so I need to just go to bed. Hopefully at my dreams will soothe me and comfort me.....and refresh me...

So I started reading "grand weaver" by Ravi Zacharis and something he said really hit me...
it is something I need to hear but I also believe that it will minister to anyonw else who reads it..I pray it gives you comfort.

"More and more when something terrible happens we declare OH THATS LIFE as though DISAPPOINTMENT and HEARTACHE declare the sum total of this existence......."

I really wanted to think about this and meditate on this....am I one of those people that lets the disappointments and burdens overshadow all the good...all the blessings...and the wonderful moments of life, marriage, my work, my family, ect.
Lord I pray I am less and less guilty of this as I grow in my faith and relationship with you because I know that life is not about the lows....but is about the highs....the blessings in the LORD.

Recently I was able to go in a little PIPER plane with a friend and my family...I have to confess, I thought that Iowa was not that beautiful....if you have seen one corn field...you have seen them all.....but as we were flying up 2000 feet (correct me if I am wrong) in the air, I was in complete awe. Wow. Iowa was gorgeous! Is gorgeous! I saw Clear Lake and was stunned at how big the lake looked and had fun watching all the people in their boats and everything....................

So after this experience in the air...it hit me...sometimes we just need to rise above our circumstance...sometimes we just need a different perspective...
to change our attitude we have to change our altitude! We have to look heavenward or we need to ask the LORD ALMIGHTY to lift us up so that we can have the correct perspective.

I found a few verse in Philippians to further state my point if I have failed to do so thus far.................

Finally brothers whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable. If there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.....

Lord I ask you that you will not let me loose sight of YOU and the good things that you have produced in my life or the blessings you have given me.
I do not want to diminish my existence by getting consumed with what isnt right......or what offends me...or what hurts me....

Because as the LORD says...in this world you will have many troubles...but take heart daughter, son I have overcome the world......

SO if you are struggling and if you are distracted by the things that are not going well in your life...or you want to give up....or you have forgot how much HE LOVES YOU....please TAKE HEART BELOVED....he wants to pour into you new life, a new spirit.......

Nothing is impossible for GOD...I strongly believe in restoration and hope!
HE can mend a broken heart, a broken family, a broken person, a broken body, a broken marriage....all of this HE IS ABLE.....TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

So beloved dont get downcast by the occasional rain storm but take heart in the warmth of the sunshine....it has yet to cease rising everyday and kiss you on your face....so have faith!

May you know the LOVE of your creator and savior...may you experience comfort in HIM...and it is okay to let go of whatever you are struggling with....give it to him...he will carry you and all your burdens...he loves you and just wants to be with you......so I pray you will have spiritual eyes to see this and know that in time and with GOD.....you hope will equal restoration very soon....

I love you! Amen!

I felt that the Spirit was not done with me...so I feel that I need to keep write as he ministers to my spirit...and so that I may in any way help a child in need.....

The next passage He gave me...Jeremiah 18:
The word that came to Jeremiah from the Lord...ARISE, and go down to the potter's house and there I will let you hear my words. So I went down to the potters house and there he was working at his wheel. And the vessel he was makikng of clay was SPOILED IN THE POTTERS HAND and he reworked it into ANOTHER VESSEL, as it seemed good to the POTTER TO DO!
Then the word of the LORD came to me, O house of ISRAEL..krissy, CAN I NOT DO THIS WITH YOU as this potter does?

Lord what do you require of me in all aspects of my life...my heart has been burdened....I want to honor you in all I do....and in the recent month I have experience SO NEW and wonderful but I want to be in your hands. I want everything to be molded as you desire....take the vessel of my life...and more importantly of my heart and make it as you desire....
I know there is something amazing going to come of all this.....LORD help me to have wisdom...like SOLOMON...that is the thing I desire above all else.....a wise and discerning heart and mind.

Here is a song I heard while typing this message for someone I feel that has been striving...too much...relax in the LORD...know that he is GOD....and that he desires to just comfort you and be with you.....and he loves you....dear child how he loves you...let him hold you and love you....you can find yourself in no better place than that!

Tenth Avenue North - By Your SideFrom the album Over And Underneath
Why are you striving these days? Why are you trying to earn grace? Why are you crying? Let me lift up your face Just don't turn awayWhy are you looking for love? Why are you still searching? As if I'm not enough? To where will you go child, Tell me where will you run? To where will you run?Chorus:Cause I'll be by your side wherever you fall In the dead of night whenever you call Please don't fight these hands that are holding you My hands are holding youLook at these hands, at my side They swallowed the grave, on that night When I drank the world's sin So I could carry you in And give you lifeChorus:Here at my side wherever you fall In the dead of night whenever you call Please don't fight these hands that are holding you My hands are holding you And I, I love you And I want you to know That I, I'll love youChorus:

First of all, Jason sent me this wonderful picture of Christopher. He found his Jeep in the basement of Bryan and Cherie's house (my in laws) and was apparently thrilled...and just like daddy he had lots of work to do to it since it hadnt had an oil change....and such for a while....isnt he the most adorable sight in the world! I love you Christopher....I cry because I miss you so much...but your heart is so pure and your spirit is so wonderful! I love you baby.

Another great story that Jason shared with me was that Christopher has been asking Grandparents to pray for him,me and daddy. Jason said, "it is so wonderful becuase he really has an understanding of GOD....Lord how you have blessed me with this little life.....every smile, every tear, every memory, every moment with him I see you. Lord also thank you for the wonderful time I was able to spend with him before my departure....it was so amazing watching him grow and learn and make wonderful friends...he loves Matthias and Isaac, our dear friends' kids, he just lights up around them...so thank you for providing for him...even though he does not have his own siblings at this time...thank you for giving him friends (Kacey, Ethan and Ezra too of course) to bless him and to give him companionship!!!!!!! Also my mom's girls too...they are a blessing to him and to me...more like sisters than aunts...hehe!

So I was praying and asking God to give me a verse or verses for this journey I am on..........

Isaiah 61 :

THE SPIRIT OF THE LORD IS UPON ME (AMEN), because the LORD has anointed me to bring good news to the poor, he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound......61:1



Lord God I thank you that you call each of us to be your reflection, your hands, your feet...i know I fall short everyday....but I give you my life ...to touch and reach others physically and spiritually.....I do not have to go to the Philippines to do so.....you have given me opportunities in my neighborhood...in my community...as JABEZ prayed Lord continue to expand my territory...and help me to seek you so much that I may never doubt the work set before me...and send me more brothers and sisters in Christ to share in this journey....Thank you for those your have sent into my life especially most recently...I see the ministry you are calling me into through them....and it is so good to be lifted up by your children....

Lord a prayer that I have is that you may make me a minister of the GOSPEL...I really want ot be in ministry.....(i know those of you who are devote Christians will say...you already..are but)....I have been in the presence of someone very inspiring recently.....he is a pastor and he just went through something very dificult..the death of one of his confirmation students...a precious beauty....and he was so completely present with her family and her.....and I just yearned to be there too. I wanted to be apart of that type of ministry....giving of myself endlessly....pouring out into the lives of others emotionally and just being with those who need me....Lord I desire this so much...please open a door so I may walk through this....may I enter into a ministry like this or be a part of someone elses minsitry.....holding them up in prayer and support and love and comfort. This has really been on my heart recently...my spirit aches for this type of experience and calling....thank you Lord for the example of his life you have given me to see....really see what it takes....(and also Lord please fill him, pastor Derik, up!)

As Isaiah continues......

to give them a beautiful headress instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and garment of praise instead of faint spirit.................61:3b

Again Lord may I be an instrument of healing and restoration on this journey in the Philippines, and in Clear Lake Ia my current home, and whereever you send me next.....LORD make me a vessel...a vessel that you have perfectly carved for your perfect will for the redemption and restoration of all those I encounter.....I want to bring out the beauty in those that feel they have none, I want to bring joy to those who are grieving loss in any form in their lives, and I want to help the faint....stand and walk beside....and even carry them on my back if they need that......Lord and I do not take any credit for this if you allow me to follow this calling......because only in You may I direct them in the way of life, health, peace, renewal, restoration, healing........................

And another word from Isaiah that I ask for my own life................

"that they (I) may be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he may be glorified....." 61:3c



Lord as I am writing this I am feeling your Spirit and it excites me thank you LORD for coming to me...for putting your hand on me....let your words spill out as I type...Lord thank you thank you thank you...fill me Lord.....llena me Senor con su Espiritu.....llena me...da me tu voz...da me tu Espiritu....dame mas Senor.....I want to overflow with you....dame me poder....Dios todo que yo hizo es para ud....y todo en ti....Te Amo...y te doy mi vida...usame....Padre Te amo....

A Literal DREAM come true.........

I have dreamt of coming to the Philippines for so long.......and now I am here! I am living in expectancy!

Here are some verses that I am claiming of David's.

Psalm 143:5 I meditate on all that you have done; I ponder the works of your hands. I stretch out my hands to you; MY SOUL thirsts for you like a parched land.....8) let me hear in the morning your steadfast love, for in you I trust. Make me know the way I should go, for to you I LIFT UP MY SOUL. ......

Lord God I am desperate for more of you while I am here in the Philippines. I stand before you strip of all my comforts and my loved ones...and I do not regret this choice...but Lord I want to know you more and more...I want to experience you like never before. Walk with me Lord. Teach me and mold me more than ever before. I submit this time to you to do a great work in me....despite myself and my shortcomings.

Lord let me keep all things that you give to me in its purest form....let me see it for the beautiful creation you have created it to be...and let me not taint or distort. I love that you provide for me all my needs...that you bring things and people into my life to bless me so much. Let me take hold of those things and let me give you honor and glory.

I am already sensing some lonliness....Lord direct me and help me pull through....help me to be captivated by your heart and find my peace and love in you alone.

Lord I want nothing more than to come home.....shining in radiance because I have been with my creator....let me be used....help me to be a true servant and to not miss any opportunities.

Thank you for this time...with you Lord....thank you for the time to be with you.

In you I put my whole heart, my whole being, Krissy your daughter who desperately wants to be found in you!