Lord God I thank you for this day! I had this moment today....and I realized how faithful you are to me. You set this dream in my heart to go to the Philippines and to become a midwife over 3 years ago. And now I am here! Wow! Lord you are amazing. Lord I thought that I would have so much time with you while I am here, I mean I thought that I would encounter this revelations upon revelation thing so that I may begin writing a book or devotional. I feel that I am not able to do that currently.....but you know I am also sensing you are so near to me. I dont not hear alot of profound things come out when I am seeking you or waiting for you....i guess in the way that I am expecting...but I do sense your presence..all around me enveloping me and protecting me. I just hear you saying softly, I love you Krissy..cant you see that? Do not wait to hear anything else but this right now! Because after I fill you and you experience more of my love, I will then pour out onto you revelations and prophesies and blessings beyond your imagination or dreams. Thank you Lord....I was than reminded of the chapters in first corinthians (one of the students here also talked about this)
Paul is talking to the Corithians about them being given gifts..to teach to prophesy to speak in tongues and to heal....but he continues to go on and say..but if you have no love.....which I think means...if you have not fully grasped the love of God on your own and you do not freely give love to all....then those gifts are nothing. I thank you for the gifts you have given me Lord and I pray to use them for your glory....but more than that I want to know your love more and more and want to learn more and more how to share that love with others.
Today I was walking in Davao with a friend. We saw a small Catholic church and it reminded me of Mexico. Anyways, across the way I saw a old lady sitting in her little store. She was smiling at me. I went over to take to her a little. Kumusta ka?
She asked me where I was from and said her sister lived in the US. She also said that she was all alone there. Just her and her store. My heart instantly broke. I have recently been reading a lot of material about our obligation and call and God's heart for the widow and the fatherless......I took her hand and just held it for a moment...I actually didnt know what to say since my Cebuano is not that good....but I thought Lord in this moment let her feel your love...when I squeezed her hand she smiled so big and I saw a spark in her eye and I saw what seemed to be a tear forming. I think that she had not been touched by another human being in a long time. I was so fortunate to be in that moment with her. I know I did not do much, but in that moment I felt God's heart and God's love in my heart...pouring onto her hands like a sweet fragrant oil that was somehow soothing her lonely soul. I really am sharing this not to esteem myself and I pray that it does not come off that way.....LORD GOD, let me be your hands and feet! Lord let me touch your children and let them in a small way...be touched by their Creator and Savior through me.
I guess more than anything it was a lesson to me. The biggest lesson I am learning here is that we are called as Christians to be the tangible extension of HIS LOVE. WE are to love and love and love some more. We are to allow God to fill us up for that when we go out we will pour out his love onto his hurting children. Lord help me come to you more...to be filled so that I can fill your children up! Lord please come to me and make yourself more and more real to me that I am make you more real by my human touch...i know that I am a broken vessel and I am a sinful person..but thank you for letting me physically touch someone.
Let them experience you through me Lord. Help me to be a more perfected vessle to do so...continue your work on me Lord. You know my heart and you know I want to serve. Let me be a servant for you and help make me more like you and less like my old nature. I love you Jesus!