Wow! I havent taken the time to write on this blog for awhile. I believe I was just waiting to have something memorable to write...something significant.....
We finished up our full time ministry with GAP MINISTRIES at the end of APRIL. It was amazing working for such a ministry. We served CPS kids in a group home setting.
We were touched deeply by many of their stories and lives. I cant really write about the specifics of our times with these children for privacy reasons.
I remember sitting down with Jason last spring talking about where God was leading us next. We prayerfully decided to give the next year to GOD....whatever that might be...even if it really wasnt what we would do for the rest of our lives.....so we decided to become fulltime child care providers, first at SUNNY GLEN and then at GAP MINISTRIES. I know it was a rich growing time for Jason and I. We were blessed to watch our son live side by side some very hurting kids. I think he wont fully realize the seeds that GOD placed in his heart now but I really feel that eternal seeds were planted in his life that is going to make him a powerful man of GOD with a compassionate heart for those less fortunate. As a couple I was really proud of us, in a humble way(hehe). I just saw how God placed us together because we were called TOGETHER!!!!!Ive had some internal struggles this past year and I have had some seriously awful out of NORMAL body and spirit experiences. I devastatingly surprised myself but I am so thankful for GODs mercy and grace and patience.......I am so thankful to GOD for my wonderful husband....Hes so perfect that I take it for granted sometimes.
So we gave a year to something not really focused on us....and it required some sacrifice....financially, time wise...etc....but the eternal and spiritual reward is great.
Now we are in a new season....cant really term it yet....but I am very excited.
In the beginning of March I started feeling realy sick and found out I was INDEED pregnant. This was a major surprise.....both kind of thought it wasnt possible....since we hadnt prevented anything for about two years......
Now I am 17 almost 18 weeks pregnant.....I feel sick all the time...and cant be my normal energetic conquer the world self.....Jason thinks I am annoyingly QUIET..hehe!!! He is so great though...been taking care of me....never got so much attention....maybe Im onto something....no...JK.....I love how naturally he loves me....and does anything to help me out....I think of that song that Jessica Simpson sang after she married whats-his-name from 98 degrees (wow that doesnt age me at all) and she sang ......I CAN WEAR MY HAIR DOWN.....thats how I feel....Im comfortable...ya know....hes still loves me even when I look my worst......but how much more romantic are those other times....knowing you are with the one who has seen it all...and still adores you. Im starting to really grasp all that God intended marriage to be......and Im so excited to spend my life with this man, Jason Michael Alan Molander.....Ive already had 13 great years with him. I met him as a girl.....who worked at FAREWAY pushing carts.....hed come and pick me up in his Cavalier from work or school....because I didnt even drive back then.....wed go to the EAST PARK....walk around, read the BIBLE....talk about nothing......and some how...that was the foundation the rest of my wonderful life was built upon.....IVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH HIM more and more every year since then......I think Ive been stupid sometimes because noone every really loved me like he has....and so I think i tried to sabotage things sometimes...life really cant be this good can it...I complicated things.....why I dont know.
We have raised the most wonderful son ever.....he is so beautiful.....carries the heart of his daddy and the spirit of his mommy......and now we get the joy of another.....
Our life doesnt have to be exciting....just sitting on the couch watching AFV laughing with me makes my day......but LIFE IS REALLY exciting....I see all that God is going to be doing in our lives in the next few years..........
Heres my bucketlist......im not planning on leaving life yet...but these are some of the great things I feel like God has out on our hearts to do.
1. Welcome our new baby October 2011
2. Jason will be going back to school January 2012, finishing November 2012
3. Mission and spiritual retreat to Belize (TURTLE SHORES)
4. Mission and language training to Costa Rica (CISA)
5. Mission to Nicaragua (PVM)
6. Summer in Philippines with family (Mercy Maternity)
7. YWAM CROSS ROADS TRAINING - colorado springs or Tyler tx
8. YWAM missions - PERTH australia
9. Seminary
10. Medical School in the tropics to learn how to give best jungle medical treatment possible.
11. Have my children enrolled in international mission schools and travel the world with them.
12. Take my husband to ALASKA on another honeymoon.
Ambitious...I hope this list is just a TASTE of all that my family will endeavor to do......
Praise: God I thank you for my job and the training I am recieiving......
Prayer: Please protect the little life growing inside me...Im a midwife and I know all that is happening inside me...but I still worry about the development of my baby. Please give me the strength to safely and beautifully deliever my baby naturally...I really would like to give birth at home.....help me to apply all I learned as a midwife to safely and peacefully bring new life from my body into this world.
