I greatly offended a friend today and I am praying for her forgiveness. I do not deserve it. I goofed up in more than one way and now have to face natural consequences to my stupid choices. But what most hurts my spirit...wow, once you surrender to God how strong conviction is.....I havent felt it this strong in a long time......I cant do anything but pray and hope for forgiveness. I have ruined my witness with her. I know that breaks God heart that my sin has caused her to maybe doubt.......I keep feeling awful because I am thinking she is thinking.......THAT IS WHY I dont have much to do with God.....because his followers are hypocrites and hurtful. OUCH. I pray for restoration Lord. I am so sorry for sinning against your child.
I feel like Paul today. (Saul). He persecuted Christians and God still ended up using him as one of the most predominant apostles of the NT. God is amazing how he works...he uses some of the most messed up people to do his work...why? Because we dont want to be able to brag how great we are or what we did......we know we couldnt have done those things on our own...in our own sinful nature......only God can do those miracles in and through us despite all our ugly sinfulness.....
WHILE WE WERE YET SINNERS..the Bible says.......
So despite greatly disappointing a friend today and sinning against her....God used me today (and my family) to bring a young woman to the LORD......God created a divine appointment with me and her in the bookstore.......It went from a casual shopping trip to a collision of two lives effecting all of eternity....wow! Thanks God!
