Passionately pursuing....: dear me, I can hardly see right now.....was unpacking and found a card from someone very previous to me....why in some form or fashion do I always lose those I love and need the most..I can't bear it..my heart can't take this Lord...I see myself in this moment and I have no idea how I got here...who am I...I am glad I have You Lord such an understatement...I am here to learn Lord...I don't want to be hurting right now..but also I want to feel this all fully so that I can heal completely.....had a good talk with two people and they said in some form the measure of pain is the measure of love we had for them....oh how I loved..I mean love..I am surrendering this to You precious Lord..breath new life in me...and please watch over my friend...my soul was clouded but no one ever or will ever know my heart so well..I know this deep within me to be true. I need miracles...I need a job...I need a heavenly appointed task to distract me from myself..my silly self...thank you for you your patience Lord I know I am ridiculous...less words now..