At the end of another long arduous day.....I am very exhausted.....I am too tired to exercise, Im just too tired to open the Word of God to study the book of James like Ive intended to do for the past week now.....Ive work 3 of the past 5 overnights....Ive got those exhausted palpitations going on and that 7 lbs I lost over spring break are now only 1 lbs lost. I collapse into bed after a long day of school yesterday, after staying up 28 hours and taking a test.....had only a minute to share with my wonderful husband....before he had to stay up late to study for another test himself.....gave him a hug and wished him good luck....work up at 4 am to be on the road 445 am to get to clinicals this morning..................

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After reading this you might be exhausted yourself or annoyed at what might seem to be complaining.....

Im not complaining at all....I am writing this little synapse of this day as a memory...to remind myself and Jason of what we did to get to a beautiful place in life where I beleive god is leading us....this journey that is often exhausting just thinking about the things that day that need ot be conquered...but....that is the point... I think god is just challenging us to be faithful in these things so that we can be rewarded later....

I love my husband. I love his determination to finish school and his heart and reason for workling so hard. I love how much he adores his daughter and how much he cares and love his very vibrant son.

I love Christopher and those moments we get to share together just laughing and making each other laugh....I love how smart and creative he is and I love watching him make things and I love how much he talks. I enjoy watching him play sports this year and see him get older
I love little Alexis. I love her smile and her little grunts....I love the way she smells and watching her sleep...i love how much she adores her boys and how happy she makes Christopher....

I love my family and I love the future that I believe God has in store for us...I ask God for continued help to finish the race marked out before us...and remind us daily that it is not by our strength that we are doing any of this...

today I read about a tragedy of a family...the boy killed his mother and tried to sexual assault her.....it reminds me of some of the stories I heard and saw of at GAP and some of those kids and even part of my past.......

I am thanking God for the blessing of my family....i have everything that really matters

More to come........................

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Phil 3:12