CHILDHOOD

When I look into the eyes of my son.....I see his innocence. I see his imagination. I see His deep faith. I see his TRUST and HOPE in the world that he knows.


For some reason, God is breaking my heart! I am being broken as I deal with issues of child abuse.

I have been dealing with images of my past.

And then I have been reading watching and talking with individuals whom experienced the same kind of physical, emotional, and sexual abuse I experienced.

Lord God I thank you that I did not lose my faith. I thank you God that you sustained me and help me.

Last night while I was laying down with my husband, as he stroked my hair, and we talked about the little things of the day, I was overwhelmed. We have been married 7 years. I have a six year old son.

I thank the LORD that in his eyes I am a new creation.

I thank God that I am genuinely loved by my son. And unconditionally loved my husband.

I thank God for the healing power of LOVE!

I thank God that I could walk through FIRE and come out more refined. I thank God that I have a sensitive heart to pain, loss, and heartache. I hope that my testimony will minister to others.

I mostly hope that my story will bring GLORY to the LORD. It has to! THE LORD GOD IS A LIVING LOVING SAVING GOD. MY JESUS IS REAL!!!!! I KNOW HE IS!

I dont know why this is emerging again because I do not think these images and memories are coming forth because I need to DEAL with past hurts...but really I feel that I need to EXPLORE them as GOD prepares me to walk into a ministry that will allow me to HELP CHILDREN. AND TURN THEIR HEARTS TOWARDS GOD and HIS love!