FEARLESS LIVING

"Running down a soccer field at the age of 23, I heard the voice of the Lord Jesus Christ for the first time. I didnt hear his voice in my ears.....it was much louder than that. I heard God speak with my whole being. And when He spoke, I knew His voice as well as I knew my own mothers and fathers.
He said to me, Eddie are you going to run after this ball for the rest of your life, or are you going to run after me like you are runing after that ball?
Right there , I responded to the voice of God. I made a decision to stop running after the ball and start running after souls. My goal no longer sits at the end of the soccer field. No my goal is to see souls come to Chris to see you set free from fear by the power of God. This is my mission."

I am reading this book by Edward John and it is really captivating. I feel that I am a BOLD Christian in some ways. I would defend my faiths and beliefs if I felt they were being attacked. But internally, Lord, I realize that I am not living as BOLDLY as you desire me to. You desire a BOLDNESS inside of me to PURSUE all those things you have placed in my heart.
What is the verse...perfect love casts out fear. Yes, LORD, why is I stumbling in fear sometimes. Why do I shrink back from the things you have placed in my heart. I do no want to be complacent, ungrateful, blinded, misguided, changed by my fears but LORD I want captivate your heart and I want to captivate the identity that I have in you.......I heard a voice last night.....write them down, Krissy. 10 things you want to see happen in your lifetime. 10 things you want ME to do in the WORLD through you!!!!!!!!!Really God, I thought. You want to use me knowing all my blemishes! So here it goes.......
1. I want to support a whole village finacially, spiritually, emotionally, academically, and medically/ physically along side my husband and son.
2. I want to adopt a baby from Africa or Asia, and give her/him the life that God desires for that child.
3. I want to raise 30,000 for Samaritans purse through Team Samaritans Purse and my running abilities.
4. I want to live to see my son marry his soulmate, the woman who perfectly completes him and intends to walk with him into eternity going after the THINGS OF GOD.]
5. I want to open a clinic and community center with my husband working side by side me everyday healing and helping the children, women, and families of a tired, hurting, poor, and other wise desolate community. (HANDS OF HOPE)
6. Next year I want to help 5 Christian friends experience their first mission trip and inspire them to make their yearly vacation time, their commited mission time.
7. I want to truly be apart of bringing others to the LORD. I want to pursue people in my life that I know need encouragement and love and need to have a God encounter.
8. I want to go back and work in the Philippines and be a midwife with my family.
9. I want to go to seminary and learn how to more effectively preach and live out the WORD OF THE LORD so that the world may see the beauty of the LORD and come to him one by one.
10. I want to be the WIFE I am supposed to be and be the helpmate that GOD created me to be, to be apart of helping Jason fulfill all the dreams that the LORD has for him too.

Lord I need to get serious. I need to wake up with a zeal for life and for the THINGS that matter to you.
LORD, please help me to collide into the lives of those that need you and make me fully aware that I am intended to be the one to help them, love them and bring them to their FATHER.
I am sick of being small minded, complacent, and selfish. WOW! Lord change me and thank you for your patience. Let my life song sing to you....and yes LORD...may you be proud to sign your name at the end of my day!
Change my being LORD. Make me a new creation. Let people see me and SEE YOU instead! I have so many rough areas. But let love be the thing that heals hearts and touches lives....let me be an instrument of love.....I am nothing without you and I dont know where to go without you...please direct me so that I may serve your children and you more!
Listen to my heart, and take out anything that is hindering me from this pursuit! I love you daddy!